Samantha's Cancer Blog

holy crap....now what

Well, I finally found a non-profit organization that would at least allow me to make payments on some tests. (oh, and I wanted to clear up something from an earlier post, I got a few responses about cervical cancer. That is the type I had before. I am now being tested for endometrial cancer) I had the transvag ultrasound today. They saw several growths on my ovaries, which I somewhat expected, and are probably benign growths. However, when the tech began looking at my uterus, and the endometrial lining, he became very quiet. They had a big screen on the wall so I could see what he was looking at. The solid, white that should not be there. Of course there is still the chance that it's nothing, but I'm in nursing school, and usually a solid mass where it shouldn't be isn't a great sign. On top of my own concerns with it, he took several pictures, and when he was done said, "I'm going to take this to the radiologist right now. You will hear from your doctor today or in the morning about what to do about this, and where to go from here." I hate this kind of waiting game. I'm sure I will be told I need a biopsy... more money. Someone asked earlier if I had a good family support network... no, unfortunately I don't. BUT, I will just have to do whatever I need to do to be able to get through this. I never have been one to play victim, and I don't want to start now. First and foremost, I'll wait for the doctors call. Then, when he tells me what I already know, I will start figuring out a plan. I have to admit though, I am a little freaked out by this. I have to do something like make a living will or something so that my kids have a fighting chance of not going to their father, should something happen to me. I am SO glad this forum is here. No one else close to me seems to want to let me talk about my fears. I understand, they all want to stay in denial. But it would be really nice to be able to vent to someone. I'm scared. There, I said it. I'm scared. Not so much of my own fate, but that of my children. Anyway, I'll wait on pins and needles, and update after I get the call....
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clinics......where oh where are the clinics!

Ok, so I took the advice that I got from my last post. I found a clinic that I was able to see another Doctor for a second opinion on what tests need to be done. She was shocked, and frankly a little nervous that I have waited so long, with my history, to get these tests done. She said she is extremely concerned, and actually tried to call some other clinics, as hers does not do even the first needed test. She was unable to find any that would do any type of financial aid, and told me to do some research and see if I could find somewhere that would help. I've done some looking, but have yet to find somewhere. I'm going to try to do some more looking tomorrow. I keep thinking, oh to hell with this.... I'm fine. Then, I look at my babies, and think, but what if I'm not. The more time I waste, if there is bad news, the worse it is going to be. So, I'll press on...
Mike sent you a prayer.
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Dear Samantha, How frustrating for you? Please do not give up on finding some help. I posted a few resources you can look into in my comment to your first post. There's a phone number there for the Utah branch of a federal program providing treatment for low or no cost to women with cervical cancer. It might be a more direct route to help than trying to find it on your own. I wish you well and hope that you find help very soon. I'll be praying for you. Peace, Kathy
Hi Samantha, Your situation makes me so angry! -- But I will avoid a political rant. Kathy is good at digging up resources and she has good ideas. I am also wondering if you qualify for Medical Assistance.Have you applied? Can you get to a university medical center (teaching hospital)? There are social workers at major hospital centers who can help you locate services for which you qualify, and they can help with Medical Assistance. You're right. Your kids need you. Keep posting. Andrea
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August 10, 2010

Spanish Fork, Utah

November 30, 1977

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